Brightside.

The past couple of days I have had zero inspiration for a post. It wasn't because I didn't want to write or because I wasn't experiencing things in the past couple of days, but it was because I just don't know how to put my thoughts into words sometimes. But now, I have some time and I really want to sink into this post and drift away with it. And I am probably going to smash a few posts into one. . .

Lately I have been feeling quite lonely, and I don't really know why. I mean, I have been spending time with my friends and family, but there is something missing that I haven't quite placed yet. I don't think it's a person, but more of a feeling. I don't even know which feeling I'm talking about! I just know there is something critical missing. Maybe it's the fact that I am really realizing the emptiness of ending high school, or the idea that within a couple of months, all of my friends will be taking off to school and I will still be here. Maybe it's that I am so unsure with what I want that I am making life too hard. I just really don't know. All I do know is that I hate feeling alone, more than anything. It's kind of depressing really, and I'm not the type to feel depressed.

Over the weekend I got to spend some much needed one-on-one time with my mommy. We packed our bags and headed to Boise. Yes, it's only one and a half hours away and everyone goes there, but I sincerely felt as though there was nothing better. We got there late Friday afternoon, checked into our hotel, and headed downtown for some quick shopping and a bite to eat. The next day we hit the mall, and I might have blown through her entire life's savings, but it was literally so fun. We shopped until we literally could not shop any more. Anyways, this is not why I brought this up. Throughout the 72-ish hours I spent with my mom, she asked me something that I will never forget. She said, "How is it that you are always so optimistic?" Honestly, one of things I have always tried to do is look on the bright side of everything. I always have hope for situations and people, and I always think there is room for improvement. It's taken me a long time to actually feel this way all the time, but it is so worth is. After a long pause all I replied with was, "I just am, in a world full of pessimist, someone's got to do it." There is so much for us all to be happy about, and there is so much that we can all do to make the world a better place.