I think sometimes we are all much too afraid of the future, including myself. Everyday I make these elaborate plans for the year ahead of me, but when I look at something, like my paycheck, my smile turns quickly into a few thousand tears. However, last night, as I was sobbing over U-Haul prices, I wandered out of my pitch black bedroom to find my mother. She instantly asked me what was wrong. "I've been home a whole month, exactly, and I have nothing to show for it. I have only $85 saved and an overwhelming sense of loss and sadness."
My mom and dad always know how to make me feel better. It may take 45 minutes and a hold on all electronic devices, but they never fail me. They reminded me something I constantly need reminded of: stop thinking so much about what you want in the future, what happened in the past, and focus on what you have now. That statement needs to be permanently etched into my forehead in order for me to remember it, I guess. But it is so true.
What we all have now is a life. And that life is precious and ALL yours. You can do whatever you want with it. You can either sob over U-Haul prices in a dark room, or you can do something beautiful. For the rest of the month (gotta start out small) I am challenging myself to appreciate the small gifts I get everyday. Whether it be a smile from a stranger or a hug from my mom, because some of the greatest gifts are those that we often overlook.
xoxo.
