Summer after graduation has a lot of changes in itself. Everybody is leaving, moving on with their lives, and becoming their own person. But on top of all that, I am dealing with some changes in my family. My brother will soon head of to Moscow, my sister is constantly working or with her boyfriend, and my parents are talking business 24/7. Throughout all of this, I am trying my best to be the support system for all of them, staying in the background, causing as little distraction as possible. For now it is working, quite well actually. And I am fairly happy with it.
Changes in friendships are the hardest I am dealing with. Some of my strongest friendships are dying, others are completely striving. I feel indifferent because I don't know if I am even trying to help these situations at all. But at the same time, I know that I am pretty darn happy. Because I am not focused so much on other people and their crazy lives, I have been able to actually take some time to figure out THIS crazy life. Amazingly, I have been able to realize who I really need in my life to help my happiness grow, and who was actually making my life a little harder even when I thought they were my fuel to happiness.
One friendship I know will never change, is the one I have with my best friends, Kable Barnhart and Sydney Bergen. These two are my life. Without them, I wouldn't know what my life would be. Boring, maybe? These two are definitely NOT boring. And I know I can always count on them, forever. It's going to be hard when we actually have to part at the end of the summer. But we all know that we will always be friends. No matter what! It's a comforting feeling to know that I can always fall back on these two, just like a surprise trust fall. And at the same time, they will always have me for the same reasons.
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